It’s happened! Lord, now I need your direction more than ever before. I find myself standing at an interchange with numerous paths leading out from here. What is the correct course? Where is it that you’d have me go?
Here is the backstory
Last week we had confirmation at the office that there was at best limited chances that the vast majority of our crew would be employed by the company I work for in a few short months. For those who don’t know what I do as a vocation; I currently am employed as a software developer for the security compliance team. I have amassed a vast treasure trove of experience in the IT industry being a seasoned professional.
The company has lost its primary contract and we are shifting gears to transition the operations to a new company that has been awarded the contract. Since I develop new applications to enhance the security team’s ability to respond to new security initiatives, common sense tells me that due to the type of work that I do for the company that I will be among the first to be shown the door.
When I received the news surprisingly I faced it with a calm optimism. I started this out being very confident that the Lord was preparing me for a new chapter and this potentially troubling announcement was nothing short of God closing one door to open another for me. After all, His Word constantly prompts me to trust in His direction for my ways.
Psalm 25:5 (CSB)
Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation; I wait for you all day long.
This week, I began to get a bit more serious about engaging in the tedious task of sorting through virtually hundreds upon hundreds of job listings coming off of job engines on line. I had been referred by an associate to a talented recruiter with a solid track record. Yesterday after work, I sat with this gentleman and we discussed the prospects and what we needed to do to get things moving.
I guess that is when it hit me. This isn’t a ‘Valley of the shadow of death’ moment. No a different type of trepidation had begun to encroach on my mind…
position and status. Cashing in, isn’t the paramount objective at this point. You’ve led me here, I want to follow the direction you would set before me.
So what’s a servant to do?
As I survey the jobs that “I could do” I’m constantly reminded that just because I can, doesn’t mean I should (something we use in information security circles often). I’m qualified and capable of doing a good many things. However, in the middle of this potentially confusing time, I find my heart tells me that this next step is more important to my Father in heaven than so many others have been in the past.
Several months ago, I felt like God was preparing me for a new chapter. I had no idea then what that chapter might be, nor do I have any better idea right now. I simply know He has a plan and expectation that I will follow that course.
A couple of passages from Isaiah spoke to me in all this.
Isaiah 30:20-21 (CSB)
The Lord will give you meager bread and water during oppression, but your Teacher will not hide any longer. Your eyes will see your Teacher, and whenever you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear this command behind you: “This is the way. Walk in it.”
Isaiah 42:16 (CSB)
I will lead the blind by a way they did not know; I will guide them on paths they have not known. I will turn darkness to light in front of them and rough places into level ground. This is what I will do for them, and I will not abandon them.
Pretty profound words if you ask me. ‘Whenever you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear this command behind you: “This is the way. Walk in it” ‘; tells me to set aside the trepidation that the enemy is pressing in on me. Just listen and He will say ‘This is the way Walk in it.”
And I am currently blinded, though not physically. I’m blinded by a forest of options, looking for that one sapling that the Lord would have me nurture and invest my time in. He says He will lead the way; the way I don’t even know. Therefore, it may not even be visible right now and He needs to put me somewhere else to see it. But he promises, that he will guide me on these paths that I’m unfamiliar with. He will cast light on that path and make a way smooth so I can make my way to where He wishes me to be. He is going to do this for me. He will not abandon me.
I find myself realizing a few things that make all the difference between the ciaos that the enemy would instill in my mind over the choices that lay ahead, and the peace knowing that regardless of what I can see now, it doesn’t limit what my God can and will do on my behalf.
Matthew 17:20 (CSB)
“Because of your little faith,” he told them. “For truly I tell you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will tell this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”
‘Nothing will be impossible for you.’ I like the sound of that!
Galatians 2:20 (CSB)
I have been crucified with Christ, and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
Let’s take the pressure off! First off, “I have been crucified with Christ, and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.” This is not ‘my’ next steps that I’ve been troubled over, they are Christ’s. I was crucified with Christ when I surrendered my life to Him; my will to Him. Secondly, “I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” Faith in the one that lives in me. He sacrificed himself for me, why would I display doubt by allowing concern for my choices? It simply doesn’t make any sense to place my faith in His Grace and withhold faith in His ability to act on my behalf!
Joshua 1:9 (CSB)
Haven’t I commanded you: be strong and courageous? Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
Can you say ‘ouch’? It would seem that I’ve stumbled a bit here because the last few day’s I’ve not been strong or courageous. In fact, I can really say that I was feeling discouraged and fearful of making the wrong choice.
2 Samuel 7:28 (CSB)
Lord God, you are God; your words are true, and you have promised this good thing to your servant.
Realizing just who God is; He IS GOD! He can’t tell lies because He is simply incapable of doing so. He’s promised good things to his children and I (we) should trust in His goodness.
Psalm 9:10 (CSB)
Those who know your name trust in you because you have not abandoned those who seek you, Lord.
I know Yahweh! Trust can and should be a given because he has not ever abandoned those who sought after Him.
The job is going away (unless the Lord decides to alter the current course of this company I work for). While I have a myriad of potential paths I could head out on from here there is only one that I’m interested in. That is the one that the Lord wills for me. I need to be steadfast in my faith and trust in the Lord to guide me to the pasture that he has chosen for me. I will fear no evil, because He protects and comforts me even when there is tribulation about me.
Psalm 23 (CSB)
The Lord is my shepherd; I have what I need. He lets me lie down in green pastures; he leads me beside quiet waters.
He renews my life; he leads me along the right paths for his name’s sake.
Even when I go through the darkest valley, I fear no danger, for you are with me; your rod and your staff—they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Only goodness and faithful love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in[c] the house of the Lord as long as I live.
And that is good enough for me! Because, “you are the God of my salvation; I wait for you all day long.”
After all, He’s already found the way for me.